One Out, One In and a Horrible New Job

I have come to realise why all my plants are dead, they get much more neglected than my blog! Which let’s be honest is too much! Well a lot has happened my own ‘Mr Big’ has left and que Mr gorgeous walking straight in which happens to be the only perk of my new job! Mr gorgeous however does have a Missus but I’m sure something can be worked out about that one, somehow.

Anyway I’ve digressed already! So the first left, to Uni anyway thought I would be really bothered like the heartbroken girl sat at home by the phone waiting for him to return, only joking! I’m rather over all the drama if I’m being honest, much more focused on the unobtainable? – one day I might live in the real world, until then ill provide some sort of entertainment I suppose? A lot more than this Big Brother crap, I mean seriously where do they find some of these people? They should put me in the big brother house to bring some REAL carnage to the proceedings – I say this I would probably just cry in the garden because there is no internet or squares bars. (Oh dear, I think I have the attention span of a salivating Labrador in a dog park) Anyway for a ‘relationship’ I’m over it quickly, I suppose that’s a good attribute to have it will definitely get me through life a little easier. We have already been through the second appearing but I just wanted to mention it again, because he is beautiful. Although to be honest part of me is a little sick of the lovey dovey relationships the thought of it all sounds a little too much like effort, on the other hand it would be nice to have someone as long as the drama stayed way way away! So I suppose that really, I have no idea what I want….. does anyone?

Summer Break

Very nearly half way through the 'relaxing' break im supposed to be enjoying, however so far i dont feel I have achieved much of either, other than a few lessons learn't about FRIENDS and of course Harry Potter part 2 which is still the most exciting thing to happen in my life, so far!

You think of summer, even in England, being about friends, beaches, in my case spending time the horses some parties even. Well sterotypical summer -I'm far from impressed. the only thing I can see coming in the distance is the doom of going back and having stacks of work to do and lets face it, who the heck wants to do that?!

It's going to be a long few weeks unless things pick up!

He is back, He has Changed, I am Happy

Its true, the illusive guy is back! - I feel that should have been much more dramatic, nevermind.

Alot has changed since my last douse of a sticky on/off  'relationship' infact this year alot has changed period, one of the most exciting has to be the last Harry Potter release! its fantastic! - however I digress! Perhaps maybe the most exciting part should be this relationship taking a great turn and becoming a lot more serious, leading me from chronic depression in January to actually resonably happy in, lets call it August for refference sakes. However me being the doubfully negative person I am, which can only be proved by the fact im watching rubbish tv at 1 am on a thursday/friday! Again I have digressed, ah yes im not getting my hopes up becuase lets face it after prozac you're not that stupid anymore, however just to contrdict my self, I am hopeful this new found spark will last!

Reading this back to my self really makes me think, do other people go through these sorts of relationships? if so why? - im not going to lie as much as im in love with him now and suppose have always have carried torch but the past two years of this on off, for me atleast have been damn hard work and probably aged me! not for one minute would I do it differently, but christ its not always as much fun as its cracked upto be! (I feel i have just been really nasty to this bloke, please re itterate this is not all the time, and I wouldnt never change any of it!)

So as entitled of the blog here is a section on Men, and I have just thought to myself, this may have been a messy relationship at times, but actually its just my life and I need to stop comparing it to other people and embrace it - that will be the prozac kicking in, lets leave it at that.

the awkward moment

when you forget his birthday! I am usually very good at things like this, but this year being a business and events student has had be way to busy, end of a first year nearly here, work no where near done.

back to the assignment marathon i go.

Is any one really this free?

People claim to be so free that they are born from a boombox, so in tune with music that they are its filthy love child.

ive just found this and found it really interesting so thought i should share, is anyone this free?

Relationships

Who was the single person who invented these unwritten laws of 'love' how does everyone know them? i don't ever remember a class or day at school, Sports day, Relationship day? Maybe i had a virus that day -which is actually very ironic to how infectious infactuation can be! They say love is blind, and by looking at some of my ex boyfriends you can't say they're wrong, personally i don't think love is blind, i think its a vile creature which sneaks up on you from the pits of your own insanity and sometimes against your will drags you into its infactuational state leaving you stupid, yet still not needing a guide dog or a white stick.

It only seems to be the human race that has such big issues with "love" Swans some of the most majestic animals in the world mind their mate and stay together for life, as do penguins all good and well, you dont see them getting a divorce, other animals don't live happily ever after, spiders for example shes takes the male for what she requires and then eats him!? and we judge the people on Jeremy Kyle!

Can somebody please tell me why we complicate things so much?